At any given point in my healing journey I can be perceived as having this
or that insecurity. The journey I am on is incredibly difficult. No one should have
to be on it. Not even my God can relate to it from his humanity. Of course in
His divinity He knows all how I have suffered. Now as I acknowledge and fully
absorb the truth, my inner self and ego -- the very me of me – are being
gradually restored to the wholeness they were meant to be -- whole and intact.
The innocent inner child before he was abused is flowering into adulthood
rather than remaining hidden under a veil of symptoms which many identify and
relate to as if this veil were who I am. I guess to them the veil is the
essence rather than the cover. I will not be related to in that manner
regardless of the cost. The veil itself is an undeserved consequence of the
abuse as are the people who have related to the veil, as if it were real, perpetrating their own cycle
of abuse that is not felt by the veil but passes through to the healing person
underneath. Those who are not patient with my process are not worthy of
friendship. I am healing from hideous
evil perpetrated on a Child’s core being -- the very me of me. Who then loves me if they do not understand
and support me?
