Ego holds
the seat of the self within.
It is our very essence.
It is that
which is in us and given us by God. Our very essence our very self is expressed
within the ego.
Vulnerability
is an aspect of self
contained.
The ego
is contained within the self. The ego the very essence of self is the seat of
hopes, dreams, aspiration, potential – it is what the self wants and is capable
of,
containing
capabilities and the drive to achieve those capabilities.
It is the
self’s fondest desires.
While the
ego may distort reality for a time due to vulnerability, the fragile nature of
the ego. This distortion is born of abuse -- begotten by it. The distortion
protects the ego. It protects the small vulnerable emerging self from realities
that are more than harsh, but terrifying, confusing and hideous. Too much for the emerging self and ego of
childhood to endure.
While
reality is distorted for it's protection the ego continues to grow and be
nurtured by the self via a mysterious mechanism designed by God that defies
science. The vulnerability the protection the distortion of reality allows this
growth to continue. The growth itself continues, but the distortion fed by
intense and depth of feeling can be invoked by incidents, and other protective mechanisms
designed to protect the emerging ego when in fact it does not need the
protective mechanisms. This phenomenon is an aspect of Post Traumatic Stress
Syndrome, it is a symptom of the syndrome. Additionally, that which remains
hidden is struggling to emerge into the consciousness of self and be acknowledged.
This can also produce a distortion of reality.
There are
those who would reduce these machinations to mere chemistry. A chemistry which
they do not yet understand, and yet tout as reality. But how it works is not understood. To thus
tout what they do not understand, those who believe such things distort reality
and their own egos.
Ego is
often associated with false pride essential to this is a lack of humility in
it's full sense of the word. Both the reduction of the ego to the ephemeral and
the expansion of the ego as the king of the material realm. One example of this
is the history of psychiatry. Now they prescribe "medicine" designed
to quite and indeed sequester the ego of others so that they may profit and so
that they and us will not be disturbed by the reality of cause. They prescribe "medicine" the actual
effects of which they do not understand, yet they ascribe their ability to
"heal" a metaphor for this quietness to the most complex and fine
chemical and electrical interactions which they are light years away from truly
understanding and which are themselves -- the chemical and electrical
interactions -- as unique as the God given egos. This tendency to
aggrandizement and profiteering by supposed healers, itself a distortion of the
ego, leads to atrocities -- abuse. The most recent examples of which are giving
high powered amphetamines to children because of their over active minds and
imaginations (ADHD) -- to keep them quite. So as not to disturb whatever it is
that goes on in our classrooms these days that is metaphorically called
education. They also prescribe anti-depressants that cause those who take them
to actually be more depressed and commit suicide. They have advanced in their
profiteering techniques from drilling holes in peoples skulls to let out the
evil spirits, electro shock therapy and lobotomies (because after all they were
convinced they knew just how the brain worked organically).
So now
they prescribe "medicine" that they don't understand, ascribe their
effects to elector chemistry that they don't understand and profit from
"healing."
This is
the false pride
this
distortion of reality that many attribute to the word "ego."
As the
history of societies has always been to wage war on the unique, the creative,
the individual.
Then
there are the "free" ism fellowships that also wage war on the ego in
it's true sense. They attribute to the ego a pejorative context that is
associated with false pride that is not at all inherent, but this false pride
is itself a distortion of self. The same
type of distortion that inhibits the flowering of the ego into self-actualization
the self actualization that is the happiness for which the ego was
created. This false pride who’s purpose is
to deny the ego of others is itself the very
lack of humility that is said to be the problem. False pride both aggrandizes
the ego and inhibits it. In conjunction
with pop-psychology, which supports them, these free “ism” fellowships wage war
on the self, the ego, the survivor, and provide aid and comfort to perpetrators
who’s singleness of purpose is to destroy the self and egos of others.
But all of the above are the distortions of
the ego to cover for vulnerability which through their pride they deny. As they (and they here means any and all perpetrators
and any and all persons, principles or institutions that support them by
denying the flowering of the ego) attempt to smash in favor of conformity the
ego -- the seat of individualism, the essence of self, hopes aspirations,
dreams, and creativity. This is the essence of the false ego the very thing
that they say is evil and wrong and
prideful.
For a
survivor to buy into to this without seeing through it is defeat. It is the
victory of the perpetrators. It is this very ego that the perpetrators
attempted to destroy. But they will not succeed. For within the ego is also
determination and the will of self-expression. The very perseverance that
shouts "no, I will not sit down, I will not shut up, I will not listen to
this drivel and not call it drivel. I
will not provide a safe haven for perpetrators. I will not go quietly. I exist. I am true. I am genuine. I am unique. I think
therefore I am. I am determined to
remember, to speak, to be heard, and to heal!
This is
the ego unfettered and it is given by God and it is good. And you will not kill
it with your distortion of reality. Pax
Christi.
yada yada
yada Melody Beatie. Robin Norwood all
over the place. F*** 'em
